Feelings Expressed

Over this past year I have gotten to know some people that have helped me out immensely. As you know you grow strong friendships with some, and others you would just like to put away. Now I know high school isn't the real world, but when your in the moment of high school, it means something! I learned over my high school career, that you should open yourself up..... to a certain point. When someone asks you whats wrong, be honest ya know. But if they keep pushing you to something that you have no idea what it is, don't open yourself up if your not comfortable. Never open yourself up. Never fall into the idea that you have to express how you feel. Never be anyone your not suppose to be.
Everything you say, everything you do that is uncharacteristic of you, to people is just a load of crap. By you making your own choices, thats being you. By changing your mood, by changing your clothing, by changing anything in life to suit how you want to be.... well then damn it, thats being you and your not affected by anyone by it. I know life is short and all those cliche quotes, but life is nothing but people trying to figure out who they are. Don't let anyone affect you on who you want to be, wha tyou wnat to be, or who you want to become! Screw all those who stop you and annoy the hell out of you honestly!!!

love......

just like the snow patrol song...." those three words are said to much." this clearly implies that saying i love you to your so callled " companion" is truly meaning it. to me this all seems like a hoax. saying i love you to someone that u've known for like a month is not truly meaning the sentence of it. saying i love you to someone that u have truly got to know, cherrish, go through hard times with, and adore is really meaning it. high school love is soo pre madona. high school is love is soo good, in the moment, but after that it isn't. high school love only seems to bring up more drama and hardships, and sometimes even friendships can be lost. thats all i got for this blog now but im sure there will be more..........!!!!!

music perspective

there are lots of reasons why there are different types of music. most rap and hip-hop is about getting things they got, but another part of that is that they express their personality and life style through spittin out rhymes. country music is used i believe to express hardships and situations that they have gone through with love ones or just anyone. but my favorite style of music is emo/hardcore/ screamo. there is a certain reason why i do listen to this style too. when the screamer screams at the top of his lungs in a song, they have a reason to. i feel that i can relate to that phrase their screaming about rather than someone just singing a lyric that a producer wrote. many people may disagree with me, but thats the way i see it. i love every kind, style and genre of music too but that style of screaming i most enjoy, and other people don't. without music i don't think society would be the same way it is today. music is a self reliever and a way to express how someone may truly feel about something. music is everything to me!

coming to the realization of......

this past week(7/28-8/04) i went on a mission trip to texas with my youth group, youth pastor and 4 other adults. we repaired a house that was damaged by hurricane rita. i got to frame the outside of houses, cauck, sand, and help witha bunch of other stuff. during the week i began to open up to everyone, and it felt really good. i was contemplating whether to tell everyone in my youth group an incident in my life that i wanted to take back. i decided to go for it and tell everyone what happen. my real point of saying it though was to not tell everyone what i wanted to take back but rather that in life, if u have God's love and friends and family that care and listen and supports you, you don't need anymore in life. stop trying to act like someone your not and trying to dress so u fit in, stop trying to be accepted into a group of people that isn't really u. be who u are and God will love u for it.

life perspective

life perspective......i hate people that judge to quickly, yeah i am caught guilty once and awhile, but i know when someone is doing something as we know as akward, then thats who they truly are expressing themselves as.one person can make a difference. i feel that the person who is trying to be noticed by the " one person" is showing who they truly NOT are bceause they are trying to show someone who they " really" are but their just fooling themselves. in order to make a difference, you have to be different. be that person who takes a stand for what you believe in.. life is all but finding who we truly are when we are in time of discomfort. i know that i don't know why i am living still, i don't know why i wear and say the things i do, i don't know why i feel how i feel; but i do know that i am who i am, and i live with it. i don't care how people judge me, or what they say to me, i don't care if they think im emo, i don't care about it at all. i don't care about not being a none "ideal" person to society, but society has the greatest affect on people with out society knowing it! i hate people that act as a big tough person but then they cant do anything to back it up! " to find the future forget the past." JC